Chemotherapy 7/10/24

 Having a sick child can be one of the most emotionally overwhelming experiences for a parent. It often brings a deep sense of helplessness, especially when you can’t immediately make things better for your child. The worry and fear for their well-being can weigh heavily, keeping you up at night, and the uncertainty of how long the illness will last or how severe it might become can be emotionally draining.


At the same time, it often comes with a strong desire to be strong for them, to protect and comfort them as much as possible. Every small improvement brings a sense of relief, but the anxiety tends to linger in the background. There’s a blend of love, worry, exhaustion, and hope that seems to pull you in different directions, but the priority always remains clear — to do whatever you can for your child, no matter how difficult it feels.


We have been in GOSH for two whole days now as Zack's port has been blocked. Which means he can't have blood tests or receive his chemo. It's been a long few days and Zack has been amazing apart from punching a nurse in face today when they came near him - I mean I don't blame him.


They have tried everything they can to unblock his port but nothing has worked so next step is replacing the port. This requires a small surgery and fasting for almost 5 hours which I feel is the hardest part for an almost two year old. 


Zack continues to be his bubbly smiley self and this is what helps us get through. 


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