Hospitals

 A hospital room is a funny place, lots of nurses but yet so lonely ! Lots of noise yet so quiet. 

We've been in and out of Great Ormond Street and Barnet Hospital so many times that you'd think I would be used to it. 

Everytime they say we need to stay in my heart skips a beat and I feel deflated. I blame it on myself. Why now? Where has he been? Who has he seen?  How long will we be there for? What will I do with the other children? Will they be okay! So many questions with answers not even the professionals can answer. 

I am currently in the hospital waiting for Zack to have a platelet infusion. As well as anti biotics, and all these questions go through my head at least 100 times.

Zack had a scan this week, this is our third one. We wake up at 5 and head to GOSH where we are seen at seven. Zack couldn't eat from 4, so I have already woken him up in the night to feed him. By about 9 he is taken down for the scan they have put him to sleep using sedation medicine. He' looks so little and small in the bed he's without me as I can't go in there with him. An hour and a half later which feels like 6 hours he's had the scan. He wakes up in the middle screaming so they had to give him more sedation. It takes him an hour or so to wake up, has his milk and then goes back to sleep. As he had to have extra sedation it takes longer for him to wake up. They make sure all his vitals are okay and send us home. 


You feel relived the scan is over but now the wait begins.... how long the results will take we never know. So many questions, so many scenarios to think about.

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